Once we repent and fully surrender to Jesus, the Holy Spirit always leads us into the desert to deal with the Adamic nature or “entire sanctification”. We’re quite literally boxed in (even though we may not see it for a time) and must make the decision to submit and wait on Jesus (and endure the crucifixion) or try to escape. It didn’t work for the children of Israel, nor will it work for you. Escape will only lead to heartache and pain.
Will you make the decision to wait on Jesus and trust that He loves you and cares for you and will you resist the urge to “do it yourself.” You can’t do it but Jesus can, why don’t you just you trust Him to finish this work and carry you out of the desert and into the land of Canaan?